where do i begin?
this weekend was AH-MAY-ZING! I just loved the fact that I got to see almost everyone at one place. I seriously missed all of the PUC kids and would have gone up a lot more if it hadn’t been for nursing. Thankfully i love how, for the most part, it seems like the distance never happened and everything is the way it should be. I really wish i was able to be in more than one place at a time. Even though this week was lovely and i wouldn’t have traded it for the world there were things that I realized “grinds mtwihy gears”. In no particular order here they are:
1) Looong loooong drives with no help: driving to PUC wasn’t all that bad but the drive back will be in my top 10 worst drives ever. I was so tired, felt icky and knowing that nobody would help out with the drive only made it worst. I seriously would have loved to stay with my family and call it a day, but alas “carpooling” put an end to that dream. Needless to say, I am never doing that again.
2) Fake people- 2 different types here. [a] To person #1-I understand you said you weren’t going to drink this weekend because you said you are making changes in your life as well. That’s great but if you want to drink or not drink do it because you want to and have no regrets. But please don’t be fake. I know for a fact that you didn’t drink at all a certain night yet when we were all leaving the place, you are acting drunk. Everyone else is oblivious because they did drink, but you know i knew. Why act drunk? IF you want to be drunk then just freaking drink! But please, don’t act drunk. That just makes you look stupid. Just saying. [b] To person #2- I had the ‘privilege’ of staying with this new girl. I had never met her before in my life and only did because she was the bathmate. She seemed nice although i quickly got use to the fact that every other word used by her was a cuss word. Anywho, while talking to my friend about my ex-bf she quickly butts in and tells me “oh you mean your ex? I know him!” quickly i lied and said, um no different guy. She later gives me the 411 on my ex saying that she knows him and whatnot. I just smiled and kept talking to my friend. Later i get a text from her roomate that is a really good friend of mine saying that this “new girl” that i JUST met is talking crap about me! Saying how i was bad for my ex, i played him and none of his friends liked me for him. I decided to rise above and just brush it off but it made me cringe at how fake this girl was through the entire weekend.
3) Judging a couple’s relationship: It is so easy for an outsider looking in to judge a “relationship”. Bottom line, if you aren’t in the relationship you can’t judge or make your opinions on the couple. Only the people in the relationship know what they have, what they struggle with, why they are together or why they called it quits. So shut your mouth and stop being jealous, angry, mad or whatever. Move on with your life and judge yourself before you find the need to judge to people that are happy being together.
4) acting like a jerk- Don’t act like you are “half happy” to see me when you and i know you were texting me non-stop before i even got in my car to come see you this weekend. Yet throughout the whole damn weekend you ignored me, made me wait for you, and pretended you didn’t know me when you were in front of your friends. The funny thing is everyone kept asking me where you were. After i leave you then text me saying “i miss you”. OH do you? well you sure have a funny way of showing it. Fake jerk.
5) BF trumps friendship- I understand that you have one. I understand that you want to spend time with the kid because you aren’t going to see him in a while. Yet, i also understand the fact that i haven’t seen you since JANUARY and I drove 4 hours to see you yet you choose him over me. I understand that yea you aren’t going to see him in a while yet you drive to see him almost every weekend and never drive to see me. I’ll leave this sunday and who knows when you are going to see me. Yet you didn’t have any second thoughts when you choose to hang out with him. You make plans with him and I drove 4 hours for what??! Bf trumps friendship and i’m not ok with that. Whatever choose him. I’m over it.
Overall i learned a lot about myself. Realize i have grown a lot. Realized how friends can change for the best and sometimes for the worst. Realized what i want in a relationship. Realized who my true friends are. Realized that i should have eaten a lot more this past weekend. Realized that despite everything, i love you Napa Valley.
